Today is Day 5 of meditation. Yesterday I had a couple of curve balls thrown to me, had a good cry and like a good soldier put my armor on to steel against whatever might come my way. Starting this meditation, I felt the tension in my jaw and my gums burning. Happy to have that released. In the circle, there were lots of people all needing something from me, I imagined it like a clock, with me in the middle and all of them reaching out to me, zombie like. One by one, I gave them what they needed, acceptance, unconditional love, reassurance, and one by one, they all sat down around me, all of us enjoying the beautiful light. After the meditation, I decided to just sit and enjoy the stillness, but then my monkey mind started right up again. So I did the meditation again. This time the tension was in my abdomen area and I was able to "HuH" that right out. In my circle I saw monarch butterflies and sparrows flying about me, and they just wanted to be let go. So I imagined an arched window that I opened and they all flew away, taking with them energies that I no longer needed to carry. I was then left alone, in peace, in my circle filled with white light. My Ego needs to be needed, and makes up these scenarios where it is pulled in every direction, and then gets overwhelmed by its story and just wants to be left alone. It is a constant story that runs in my Ego life. Things too peaceful? Let's create some drama. Too much drama? Let's get sick or tired or whatever will bring the drama back to center. Woe is me. Soul waits patiently, allowing the Ego to play its life games, but always there with open arms to welcome her back home and remind, gently, "All is well."
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Today is Day 5 of meditation. Yesterday I had a couple of curve balls thrown to me, had a good cry and like a good soldier put my armor on to steel against whatever might come my way. Starting this meditation, I felt the tension in my jaw and my gums burning. Happy to have that released. In the circle, there were lots of people all needing something from me, I imagined it like a clock, with me in the middle and all of them reaching out to me, zombie like. One by one, I gave them what they needed, acceptance, unconditional love, reassurance, and one by one, they all sat down around me, all of us enjoying the beautiful light. After the meditation, I decided to just sit and enjoy the stillness, but then my monkey mind started right up again. So I did the meditation again. This time the tension was in my abdomen area and I was able to "HuH" that right out. In my circle I saw monarch butterflies and sparrows flying about me, and they just wanted to be let go. So I imagined an arched window that I opened and they all flew away, taking with them energies that I no longer needed to carry. I was then left alone, in peace, in my circle filled with white light. My Ego needs to be needed, and makes up these scenarios where it is pulled in every direction, and then gets overwhelmed by its story and just wants to be left alone. It is a constant story that runs in my Ego life. Things too peaceful? Let's create some drama. Too much drama? Let's get sick or tired or whatever will bring the drama back to center. Woe is me. Soul waits patiently, allowing the Ego to play its life games, but always there with open arms to welcome her back home and remind, gently, "All is well."
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