As promised to myself, I gave myself the gift of meditation today. The meditation was going along smoothly, the top of my thighs had some tension, a pressing like an antique flat iron on top of them. Through the breathing and toning, I was able to release the tension. I was almost through the end of the meditation, thinking, this was a nice, easy one, I let go of some of the tension and it has set the momentum for my day and then, right before the end, I was asked to bring all of myself together, the present me and the me that was done. The me that was done hit me hard. The thought that came to mind was the part of my femininity that is gone because of menopause. Not that I wanted anymore children, I have two beautiful children that I adore, but it is still a part of me that is gone. And I guess I never mourned over it or released it. I certainly went through all the symptoms (naturally, I kinda feel sorry for my husband...and anyone else who was in my life at the time), but it is still a part of me that is gone. I did not realize that this "thought" was even there! Time to do some deeper healing with my body. Acceptance of my body now, and gratitude for what it has been. Deep breath Shannon, you are not alone!
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As promised to myself, I gave myself the gift of meditation today. The meditation was going along smoothly, the top of my thighs had some tension, a pressing like an antique flat iron on top of them. Through the breathing and toning, I was able to release the tension. I was almost through the end of the meditation, thinking, this was a nice, easy one, I let go of some of the tension and it has set the momentum for my day and then, right before the end, I was asked to bring all of myself together, the present me and the me that was done. The me that was done hit me hard. The thought that came to mind was the part of my femininity that is gone because of menopause. Not that I wanted anymore children, I have two beautiful children that I adore, but it is still a part of me that is gone. And I guess I never mourned over it or released it. I certainly went through all the symptoms (naturally, I kinda feel sorry for my husband...and anyone else who was in my life at the time), but it is still a part of me that is gone. I did not realize that this "thought" was even there! Time to do some deeper healing with my body. Acceptance of my body now, and gratitude for what it has been. Deep breath Shannon, you are not alone!
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