This is one of the most profound meditations I have done to date. A truth hit me right in my heart, "In this moment, I lack nothing." WoW. I do not know where this statement will take me, I just know when I say it, or think it, I take a deep breath and know it is true for me. The phrase surrounds me like a soft blanket, gently taking my Ego and leading it to softness, tenderness, Home.
I did this meditation again today. I use my IPAD for these meditations because my really nice headphones are linked to it. Evidently this is the last time I did a meditation, because it is where my IPAD went to. It blows my mind that I haven't meditated for two months. Why I ask myself? I always feel better. What is the block? I will have the next week and half to myself in the apartment, so have promised myself that this will be a gift I give myself every morning. So much has happened in the last two months, my son got married, my dad spent 5 days in the hospital and will need heart valve surgery, I got a silly part time retail job, my husband is having knee surgery in a couple of weeks.....As I sit here and write, I am starting to cry and I realize that I have not given my body or my Ego an outlet to release all that has happened. And I don't know why. I don't know why I have been holding on to all these things so tightly, for dear life, but oh my goodness, it feels so good to let it all go. I can breathe deep, my chest feels wide open, I don't remember the last time I took really deep breaths. So here is a little promise I am going to make to myself, to keep doing these meditations, daily if at all possible, although I realize that I am really good at keeping promises to others, I am not so good with myself. Going forward, I promise to myself to make every attempt possible to take the 10 or so minutes that these meditations ask of me, but give back to me so much more. But to also be gentle with myself, knowing that my journey is one of beauty, no matter which path I take.
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This is one of the most profound meditations I have done to date. A truth hit me right in my heart, "In this moment, I lack nothing." WoW. I do not know where this statement will take me, I just know when I say it, or think it, I take a deep breath and know it is true for me. The phrase surrounds me like a soft blanket, gently taking my Ego and leading it to softness, tenderness, Home.
I did this meditation again today. I use my IPAD for these meditations because my really nice headphones are linked to it. Evidently this is the last time I did a meditation, because it is where my IPAD went to. It blows my mind that I haven't meditated for two months. Why I ask myself? I always feel better. What is the block? I will have the next week and half to myself in the apartment, so have promised myself that this will be a gift I give myself every morning. So much has happened in the last two months, my son got married, my dad spent 5 days in the hospital and will need heart valve surgery, I got a silly part time retail job, my husband is having knee surgery in a couple of weeks.....As I sit here and write, I am starting to cry and I realize that I have not given my body or my Ego an outlet to release all that has happened. And I don't know why. I don't know why I have been holding on to all these things so tightly, for dear life, but oh my goodness, it feels so good to let it all go. I can breathe deep, my chest feels wide open, I don't remember the last time I took really deep breaths. So here is a little promise I am going to make to myself, to keep doing these meditations, daily if at all possible, although I realize that I am really good at keeping promises to others, I am not so good with myself. Going forward, I promise to myself to make every attempt possible to take the 10 or so minutes that these meditations ask of me, but give back to me so much more. But to also be gentle with myself, knowing that my journey is one of beauty, no matter which path I take.
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